by Stephanie | 10:53 pm

I don’t know about you guys but poetry has been with me for so long, it has been one of the most important aspects, when it comes to my personal life experiences.

Poems about depression and anxiety are the main two topics I focus on.

Why is that?

You see, growing up in an abusive household ruins your life, and the only way I could deal with what was going on in my life was writing poems about depression. That was some really long time ago, but I still treasure every single one of the poems I wrote back then when I was barely a teenager. Those are too personal. There are others that even though they’re personal, I feel comfortable sharing with the world.

I used to post some of these poems on social media under an alias I gave myself so no one would know it was me. To this day, it still scares me to have all these personal stories out for everyone to read. I am facing that fear right now, and I’m going to share with you three of my poems. They are really short, but I’m sure you wouldn’t want to read some long essay type of poem, so I hope you enjoy these. I will also be giving you a little insider on what they’re about.

Side note: The poems down below are all written by me.

Wishful Thinking

poems about depression

it’s three am and im still awake battling the voices and the memories inside my head.

everybody tells me what to do, but no one knows how to understand.
it’s not just doing nothing while laying in bed;

it’s barely sleeping two hours and waking up wishing you were dead.

I wrote this piece last year while I was struggling with a diagnostic of severe depression. My life was once again crumbling into little pieces, and I had no control over what was going to happen next, or if I was even going to make it out alive.

I had no desire to keep fighting the misery I was feeling, but something inside me told me to hold on and just try to survive each day as it’s own.

I’m still fighting every day and even though it hasn’t really gotten any better, in fact, everything has just gotten worse. The only accomplishment I feel proud of is still being here and fighting my way through life.

Mother

poems about mothers

tell me you love me.

just please tell me once.

i don’t know what it is but you left me undone.

now i know that for you i just wasn’t enough.

As you’ve seen in the tittle, this one is self explanatory. I grew up with an alcoholic and abusive mother who never, not once, told me she loved me. Instead, all I got from her was non-stop mistreatments.

I’m still carrying that trauma for what she put me through and sometimes, just sometimes, I wish she would’ve consider the option of not having me. I never got any empathy while I was growing up and becoming my own person, I still have a permanent scar on my soul because of that. “I love you’s” are still so hard for me to believe. My brain still can’t process that I’m capable and worthy of being loved.

Haunted

poems depression

she was that girl.

you know?

the one that left before the party started, but was scared to go back home.
she found beauty in souls and it helped her grow.
she made peace with her past even though she could never let it go.

This one gathers small parts of my every day life, living with social anxiety, being scared of going back home because I didn’t want to have another bruise on my body. I have always been the type of person that loves having a special connection with people. Growing up I never had that chance.

More than what’s on the outside, I want to know if you believe in religion, what are your fears, what keeps you up at night, tell me your childhood fears…I want that type of connected with someone. Nowadays it’s so hard to find these types of people. I may be in my 20s, but I’m not about the social life of partying and going crazy.

I’d rather feel safe, surrounded with open minded people and just forget about my past, even if it is just for a couple of minutes.

It Doesn’t Matter What Others Think

As you may notice, my poems aren’t good…at all. But, regardless of that, I still enjoy writing them and letting all of my emotions and frustrations out. Instead of “just thoughts” I want to make them a reality after they’re written down on a piece of paper.

What I’m trying to say here is that it doesn’t matter if you’re a professional writer, or someone like me who just loves the idea of creating words out of life experiences.

Poems about depression make me feel less alone and more at peace with myself. I know I’m not good, but it makes me feel like I have accomplished something whenever I write one of my poems. But again, you don’t have to write poems about depression if it’s not something you’re into. You can write about anything you want. It’s all up to you. Even if you don’t think you’re good, just try it; you’d be surprised of how amazing and capable you are. I mean, you’ll never know until you try it.

This is also the first time I let my work become a description of myself, which is something really exciting but also nerve-wracking for me.

What did you think about my poems? Do you write poetry? If so, how is it going for you? I would love to hear from you in the comment section down below.

Comments

KingAndrea

Depression has grown into something so alarming nowadays and trust me it is affecting the lives of so many people, it gets so funny and alarming that it’s doesn’t affect just the adults but also the youth and the young blood. These poems are mind touching and really captivating, they attract attention to the mind, this I think is majorly to make it leave it’s state of chronic thought and depression to listen to the lines of the poem. It’s a good idea to have this.

Nov 19.2019 | 02:34 am

    Stephanie

    Thank you for taking the time to read this! 

    Nov 19.2019 | 02:37 am

Scott Hinkle

Thank you for this post.

I can totally see why poetry can be helpful for depression and those going through difficult times.

A friend of mine used poetry to help him with his issues.  I’m not sure how much reading poetry helped him but I know that writing it helped him to express himself and release some of the tension that he couldn’t otherwise.

It was an avenue for him to tell others what was going on without having to do so directly.  Without this coping mechanism I don’t think he’d be here with us today.

Thank you for sharing these poems.  I hope they help others in similar situations.

Thanks again,

Scott

Nov 19.2019 | 02:37 am

    Stephanie

    Thank you for reading, Scott! I am so glad to hear that your friend found his own personal unwinding remedy. 

    Nov 19.2019 | 02:54 am

Henderson

It is really great to see that even as a young child, you had already started writing your own poems, this goes a long way to show that you felt the need to express what you were feeling in words and that is infact a very good thing. I am a critic and I also wrote poems as well. I like your works. For me, I use poetry to criticize the present social malady. Nice work!

Nov 19.2019 | 02:38 am

    Stephanie

    Thank you for sharing that with me. I hope you’re doing amazing with your poetry as well!

    Nov 19.2019 | 02:58 am

Nadia

Hi, 

First, I want to let you know that I am so very sorry about all of this pain you had to carry with you during your childhood. No one deserves to go through this type of pain or live such a life. I am in tears just thinking about it.

I have two little girls and I would do everything in my power to make them feel good about themselves and that they are worthwhile and as a mother, I couldn’t even imagine putting a child through what you’ve been through. I am truly sorry and hugs to you my dear! your poems are so strong and are filled with real emotions, they go straight to the heart.

Always remember that you are worth it and that you deserve to be loved like any person on this planet and there are good things waiting for you. Give yourself the chance to feel the love in this world and I promise you that you will feel loved and whole again.

Keep up the good writing!

All the best, 

Nov 19.2019 | 02:45 am

    Stephanie

    Thank you so much for your kind words and for taking the time to read my poems. I really do appreciate it. It means a lot, thank you!

    Nov 19.2019 | 03:05 am

John

Wow, these are very nice poems that I see you have written over here and, to be honest, I really like it. I feel sad though that you had to go through so much as a young child and still try to live that life through it without running away. Nice to see you found solace in poetry though. I hope that as time goes on, you will be able to open up more to the world. I love poetry and I love to write as well

Nov 19.2019 | 02:48 am

    Stephanie

    Thank you so much for your kind words, John. Poetry really helps in so many ways. Writing in general is so therapeutic. 

    Nov 19.2019 | 03:08 am

Wildecoll

Poetry has a kind of mysterious vice that affects people in a very different and amazing manner. This makes it a very important part of some people’s life to feed on poetry in order to fix their mood, calm their stress and generally to help them psychologically. These poems about depression are very aesthetic and interesting,  the messages are straight and clear too. It’s very thoughtful of you to share this article, it’s useful.

Nov 19.2019 | 02:56 am

Roslinecar

Health issues nowadays drives more at the psychological imbalance of the lives of so many patients, this can be as a result of anxiety, depression and some other related problems. I understand your concern and it’s nice that you shared about your background and experience. Poetry is a kind of stress reliever, fixer and renewer, it gives you an avenue to share what is really bothering you and putting it down, it reduces the tension. This is something I do sometimes even when I’m scared. It’s a good idea people should try.

Nov 19.2019 | 03:14 am

Ovb

Just like you, I have always felt unloved all the days of my life. I have always felt that no one care about me. I have always thought that I am alone; well, I discovered lately that I am not alone, I discovered that some one cares for me despite my flaws and he showed me love beyond all doubt.

Dear Stephanie, you are loved. Somebody loves you.

Nov 19.2019 | 04:52 am

    Stephanie

    I am so glad to hear that you’re in a better place right now! You deserve all the good in the world. 

    Nov 19.2019 | 07:20 pm

Techie

These poems are heart touching and soul breaking to me.

I use to write poems too whenever I feel like this but my poems are poems of consolation, of Hope, of the joy a bright future ahead, my poems show the courage I have in God despite all odds.

I think you should console yourself with those of hope and of love. You have something very special my dear…

I wish you the best.

Nov 19.2019 | 04:58 am

Josephine

I think its wonderful that you have found a way to express your feelings.   Your poems do not have to be good.  They are your thoughts and a way for you to let out your feelings.  Writing is like talking about your feelings.  It’s letting the depression go for a little while.  You should be proud.  Your blog is a great accomplishment.

Nov 21.2019 | 09:10 pm

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