by Stephanie | 1:02 am

I’ve said it before in previous posts, but for those of you who didn’t know, I love poetry. I like the sound of it, the mixture between words and emotions, it’s just simply amazing and heartwarming to me. Throughout the years there’s always one specific question that we ask ourselves, and that is, what is the meaning of my life? I sometimes don’t understand how life works, much less how the human mind works, but regardless, words are part of the meaning of my life. They’re what defy me and what I would like the world to know me as. Not just another writer, but someone who understands where those feelings and fears are coming from.

I know I’m not a good writer, you don’t have to tell me. Regardless of my writing skills and abilities, I really just enjoy putting my emotions and everything else that I’m feeling into something that’s meaningful for me, and something that some people might enjoy.

So, today I thought I could share some of the pieces I’ve had sitting on my notebook drafts for some time now. They’re not fresh, nor new. I didn’t change anything from them, so they might seem a little odd. I’m deeply sorry for that. I’m just trying to bring you some type of comfort, just to let you know that you’re not alone.

Disclaimer: Every single piece on this post was created by me. From the poems to the image editing.

Wordspoetry

you should’ve been there but you weren’t

why are you fake apologizing?

those fake tears only made me aware of how fake your words really were

Precautionsthe meaning of my life

i hope you think about your future daughters the next time you decide to put a hand on her body without her consent

it’s not only from predators that they need to worry about

it’s also from you that they should take precautions

Unwellthe meaning of my life

nobody understands the empty feeling

they all think that I’m healing

they just don’t know with how much i’m dealing

i haven’t told anyone cause i do everything on my own

but in reality, I’m just tired of everyone leaving me alone

cause everyone comes and steals all my feelings

with no sense of regret, they just leave me bleeding

Dangerous Mindthe meaning of my life poetry

i want to do it

you can’t do it

i’ve been clean for way too long

don’t deny it, you still think about it

find me a person to help me recover.

nobody cares, you’re too broken beyond repair

i want to get better.

do you really?

the pain is draining out my soul

that’s what you’re used to

is not that serious

maybe it isn’t but trapped inside my mind can be delirious

Strugglesthe meaning of life poetry

i don’t think you understand how much your words hurt

don’t flatter yourself because it’s not only because of you i still struggle with my worth

to be honest with you

i’ve been struggling since birth

The Cycle Doesn’t End There

Those are just some of the few shorter ones I have. Every time something ticks my mind, I have to immediately write it down in some sort of form, and what better than it being poetry? I haven’t written anything recently because I have been working so hard that I barely have time to internalize where my life is at this moment. Hopefully in the next few months I’ll have fresh and new content, but for now, it’s just old pieces of work.

Sometimes, it’s extremely easy to write, but other times, it’s such a huge struggle. When you’re dealing with your mental health and you’re also on any sort of prescription medication, that can alter your capacity to concentrate. Therefore, it will make you lack on your creative side. That’s what happens to me, even though I’m working hard on what I’m doing, I still have my days where I question absolutely everything I’ve accomplished so far. I still ask myself if this is truly worth it, or if I’m just overwhelming myself to achieve something that’s unachievable. I still don’t know the answer to that, but regardless, I keep fighting. I hope you do so as well.

I would love nothing more than to know your thoughts, so please leave them in the comment section down below. How do you perceive “the meaning of my life”, what goes through your mind when you think about it?

Check out some of my other poems.

Poems About Depression 

Comments

freefromtheboss

Hi,

I have read through your website with alot of ease and flow. I have been there, trying to express my aches and pains of heartache. At the same time I feel your sense of wanting to connect with people outside of your experiences maybe?

I wouldn’t put yourself down so much, all of your poems made beautiful sense to me. You are, in my opinion, a good writer.

We put ourselves down too much when we show our hidden side to the world. You are doing great with your website and I would completly keep going and sharing if I were you!

Love your site and I will definetly be back, thanks for sharing.

Much Love,

Gayle :))

Dec 31.2019 | 01:19 am

    Stephanie

    Hi Gayle!

    Thank you so much for your lovely words. I really appreciate them!

    Dec 31.2019 | 03:01 am

Fluffy Duck Studios

Hi Stephanie, thank you for an inspiring and profound post.  Please keep writing.

I believe regular reflection on one’s life helps to process the good and the bad that life throws at us and achieve a sense of control and perspective through it all. Some people talk, some people walk, some people write.  What’s important is what you learn about yourself that makes you just that little bit stronger and wiser each day. Who cares what anyone else thinks.

Your writing is really engaging and easy to follow.  What do you find are your best conditions for writing poetry? Do you have to be somewhere quiet with no TV? Or do you sit outside at a local cafe for inspiration? What works for you?

Dec 31.2019 | 01:48 am

    Stephanie

    Thank you for stopping by! 

    As to your question, I mostly need my environment to be calm and sultry if I want to write a long poem, if not, then I don’t mind the noises. I have written some poems from my doctors office waiting room! It all depends on how inspired you feel and the current emotions you’re handling.

    Dec 31.2019 | 03:05 am

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